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why am i still awake?
Jul. 18th, 2006 03:14 amit's not as if i...couldn't use the sleep. it's not as if i don't work 12+ hours tomorrow. one job that requires brain and tolerance, one that just requires tolerance.
i'm ripping a cd that has a track called 'shaving the pope's pussy". i have something to look forward to on my ipod now! exciting!
what else. i'm going to go from 99% to 100% on my pedal. i swear. i'm paying off debt like i'm not going to miss it. at the same time, i know i'm going to need a new recording interface and computer soon....but paying off the debt makes me feel like my money is less 'dirty'. this is a new feeling to me.
i'm so ready to go. to leave. but there are things that are blocking my path and they pester me relentlessly. then i think: it's not really that bad, there used to be so many things blocking your path that you probably never saw them. that's probably true. there are people all around me that want to leave and have more things blocking them, as well. all in all, i need to shut the fuck up. i'll go when i need to go, and everything will fall into place because will leads to motion...willfull motion, and willfull motion leads to smiles, paychecks, and a pat on the back from someone, somewhere, maybe. i'm scared because i know it will change me. i'm excited because i know it will change me. i have good friends right now...and the problem with good friends is that they do smart things and smart things include "leaving sofla". it's not a problem at all; it's awesome. it's time for me to do that particular smart thing. i remind myself that i've been doing the little smart things that lead up to the big smart thing. i just have to be timely.
i'm ripping a cd that has a track called 'shaving the pope's pussy". i have something to look forward to on my ipod now! exciting!
what else. i'm going to go from 99% to 100% on my pedal. i swear. i'm paying off debt like i'm not going to miss it. at the same time, i know i'm going to need a new recording interface and computer soon....but paying off the debt makes me feel like my money is less 'dirty'. this is a new feeling to me.
i'm so ready to go. to leave. but there are things that are blocking my path and they pester me relentlessly. then i think: it's not really that bad, there used to be so many things blocking your path that you probably never saw them. that's probably true. there are people all around me that want to leave and have more things blocking them, as well. all in all, i need to shut the fuck up. i'll go when i need to go, and everything will fall into place because will leads to motion...willfull motion, and willfull motion leads to smiles, paychecks, and a pat on the back from someone, somewhere, maybe. i'm scared because i know it will change me. i'm excited because i know it will change me. i have good friends right now...and the problem with good friends is that they do smart things and smart things include "leaving sofla". it's not a problem at all; it's awesome. it's time for me to do that particular smart thing. i remind myself that i've been doing the little smart things that lead up to the big smart thing. i just have to be timely.
