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visualize your greatest fear.
ready? ok.
now visualize it in a clown suit.
scary, huh?
now...imagine it's your mother, just for shits. and it's locked you in a dark closet full of broken glass and rusty nails poked through the walls.
that is exactly how my life has been for the past few days. fuck these thunderstorms; they fuck my head up so much...and now i am depressed because of it probably...i mean, you can only take so much pain before you just get sad. you can get angry and punch walls and smack yourself against furniture but that gets old. you can alternately curse god and then beg him/her/it for help...then you beg to fall asleep or die...then you wish you had medical insurance so a doctor could actually figure out what is wrong with you...even though you are scared to go because you will get bad news... probably. dying in ignorance might be a better idea.
a lot of great men died because they were too stubborn to go to the doctor. a lot of idiots did, too... probably. I will stop complaining now, but let this be a lesson to all you people! get medical insurance and go to the doctor if you have pain. Maybe I will wake up feeling awesome! One can only hope.
In other news, I have to work on saturday because my paychecks have been abysmal due to missing days because of aforementioned headaches, friend in car accident, holiday, etc. Sorry I don't have anything cool to say.
have a good weekend!
ready? ok.
now visualize it in a clown suit.
scary, huh?
now...imagine it's your mother, just for shits. and it's locked you in a dark closet full of broken glass and rusty nails poked through the walls.
that is exactly how my life has been for the past few days. fuck these thunderstorms; they fuck my head up so much...and now i am depressed because of it probably...i mean, you can only take so much pain before you just get sad. you can get angry and punch walls and smack yourself against furniture but that gets old. you can alternately curse god and then beg him/her/it for help...then you beg to fall asleep or die...then you wish you had medical insurance so a doctor could actually figure out what is wrong with you...even though you are scared to go because you will get bad news... probably. dying in ignorance might be a better idea.
a lot of great men died because they were too stubborn to go to the doctor. a lot of idiots did, too... probably. I will stop complaining now, but let this be a lesson to all you people! get medical insurance and go to the doctor if you have pain. Maybe I will wake up feeling awesome! One can only hope.
In other news, I have to work on saturday because my paychecks have been abysmal due to missing days because of aforementioned headaches, friend in car accident, holiday, etc. Sorry I don't have anything cool to say.
have a good weekend!
