i'm sick again

..and it all started because i did something very stupid. Luckily or not, because of it, my "sick" is localized strictly in my sinuses. oh well. i was at hali's last night and i was so dizzy from the plugged sinuses and drugs that i just kind of laid there. i made a dizzy fool of myself when i got up to leave and hug everyone goodbye, tripping all over the place.

it's good to have friends who will cuddle with me when i am sick. i think it's an integral part of getting unsick. i hope someone comes to visit me tonight; staying at home, even when necessary, is lonely as shit. but...i got some work done, so i suppose it's ok.

i probably get sick because i smoke so much and never sleep and don't know how to say "no" to anything, and because i am just not beefy enough or something. I eat pretty well..that's one part of my life i have improved quite a bit. well anyhow, i haven't had a cig in two days...and hali promised she'd work out with me when i quit smoking. she probably said that because she figured i wouldn't do it...and i hadn't planned to quit for two weeks, but this opportunity presented itself, so here i am. i know i've said that a lot in my journal and in real life, so i won't make any claims to it's authenticity now.

i am having trouble knowing if this entry makes sense. i better just go sleep.